When you are learning to feel.

Today i realized, i still haven't master my emotions. When i am faced with an emotionally taxing realization, i turn back to my old ways, and quick. If any of you knew the emotional wreck that was Matt Crowe then you know that is not a good thing.
I found my self getting angry in a situation that i should have laugh off. I didn't like being angry, so i tried to deal with my anger. I even said i was sorry for it, and explained why i thought i was angry. But then a few seconds later there was anger again.
On my home from work God started to show me the root of my anger. It wasn't at all what i thought it would be. I thought it would have something to do with the situation that i was getting angry in, but it did not! The situation was just a release for the anger. The anger was caused by an emotional reaction from a different situation all together! Then to top it off the emotional reaction i was having was not anger either!
The root of the entire problem was that I realized today that my best friend is going away for 10 month. I was sad about it, but I don't know how to deal with sad to in my mixed up emotional mind i transferred the sadness to anger. Because anger is am emotion i know what to do with. God really show me all of this in about 2 seconds. I like it when God points out an area of my life i need to work on. Because it lets me know that He is not finished with me at all. That He Loves me enough to talk to about the areas in my life that i miss it in.
I am not going to bed the way i woke up. I will learn and grow in this situation. This is one of though time i am glad i have a relationship with God!